Sat, Feb. 4th, 2006, 07:05 am
Okay. So, I got frustrated about not really having gay friends I can hang out with. Girls… all I have. Just girls. I do have gay friends but they're the superficial type, and I'm done with fakers. So, the short and sweet of it is that I joined this site where you can meet other people. I was on it before I went to Florida on Spring Break this past March, so I was like, why not try it again. The problem though is that everyone basically just wants sex. Sex is great yea, but you know? I want friends. I don't want to havefriends just to sleep with them when I’m horny. If I did, I'd probably be seeping with all of you... if you wanted to. I guess my pics don't help much either. I guess they just shout fuck me or something because that's all I'm getting. They’re of my chest and stomach, not my face. God only knows where that’ll end up. No one wants to talk, hang out maybe, watch a movie. No. It's, "I live 20th and 8th Ave. Wanna come over and get fucked?" or "I wanna fuck you. Can I pick you up? I know this cheap hotel near the GW bridge for only $25 bucks." $25 huh? Gee I feel so special. There're a couple of hot guys too that asked, but I don't just want sex. If I did, I would just go out to clubs, do that innocent young vulnerable thing and pick up guys. But I'll feel trashy you know? Then I won't be happy because they wouldn't really like me, because they'd only be interested in sex.
Can I tell you something? The sex thing with strangers is kind of scary. The idea of doing the deed with someone who's only interested in pleasing themselves, then just leave when they're done doesn’t appeal to me. "Wham bam thank you Carlos. Later..." Especially with all the things out there. How safe is safe anyway? Is there such a thing as totally safe? Another thing is, if I ever did say, to hell with it, and went to meet with someone, would they like me? Now I'm just sounding pathetic. If I had a twin, I'd probably smack me. Then again if I did, I'd probably go, because I'd kind of have some to look out for me. He'd be around the corner texting me and waiting for any sign of danger. Yea... I'd be complete. I would always have him and, and him, me.
I'm a romantic I guess. I want to meet someone, go out to diner, watch movies. Just hang out, sit around all day maybe talking. Maybe walking around. Sit around in my friend’s flat and bother her. haha jk. That would be fun though. Where have the gentlemen gone? But then again, I guess a hook up site isn't a good place to go finding them. I guess if I want friends I'll just have to stick to eljay
Mon, Feb. 6th, 2006 09:41 am (UTC)
Yeah, I moved out to a rural area 'bout a year ago. No chance for the "real" dating thing the whole time I've been out here. But just a while back I had to settle for a hookup because I hadn't gotten any for the whole time I'd been out here.
And until you mentioned it, I didn't even realize I don't have any gay friends IRL right now. One bi- female, three bi- males. Then there's two ex-es I'm on good terms with but they live two hours away. And they're exes, so they know me well but they'll get the title "ex" before "friend". I really only catch them online or by phone once in a while anyway.
Looks like I have a quest now. :-/
Thu, Feb. 9th, 2006 05:52 pm (UTC)
hehe that's sounds funny in a way. Do all you guys get along? I guess I'm on a quest kind of maybe. I just want gay friends. The sensible kind. That almost sounds silly doesn't it.
A boyfriend would be nice too but hey, that may be asking too much now hehe.
Fri, Feb. 10th, 2006 03:27 am (UTC)
well, here in adriansgaybar
there hasn't been a lot of activity lately but when there is we're usually pretty friendly. I've been a part of this group since just after it started, but I've also been on LJ for five years so I've seen things come and go. There are a lot of really active gay communities on here though. And LJ as a whole really is a community. If you compare LJ to other sites like MySpace (Networking with old friends or favorite bands) and Xanga (Look at me I can type! I don't want any fun tools to customize my pages or show that I'm interesting. Oh! And there's no way to find me, but if you happen to, let me know you care!) the others just don't match up.
Sun, Feb. 12th, 2006 08:58 am (UTC)
that's what I say. Everything else is blah compared to lj. Everyone's trying to get me to open a myspace account. and there's a lot of people they I don't want to talk to.
Sun, Feb. 12th, 2006 09:07 am (UTC)
I will say, though, that I've found more people I'd fallen out of contact with than I've ever expected I would on MySpace. Even someone I inspired 8yrs ago and never knew it. We've been chatting solid for the past three days.
Mon, Feb. 13th, 2006 03:46 am (UTC)
you know what? I think you're right. I didn't even realise it. I do know what you mean thought. I've made friends that never even comment in my lj, and likewise, i've never commented in theirs; that was on a weird tangent hehe.
Fri, Feb. 17th, 2006 10:27 am (UTC)
just don't give up on the whole idea though... you're not the only one like that...and i had a gay friend for a while, but then he got really weird on me, so i'm sticking to online for now...
Mon, Feb. 20th, 2006 10:13 pm (UTC)
he got weird on you? How did he? I had one too for 9 years. Knew him since I was 10. When you think you know people right?
Anyway, I don't think I'm going to give up on the idea of making friends online totally. It's just the thing about onl wanting sex.
Sat, Mar. 4th, 2006 01:40 pm (UTC)
I m from Vladivostok Russia... So I can only be your friend)))... If you want to talk to me - that's my address...
Mon, May. 1st, 2006 02:49 pm (UTC)
Russia huh? I have a friend in russia. I visited your journal but it's all in Russian so I can't understand it hehe.